time is gold

i just viewed on ppl's blogs..
n i found out most of them are lazy to blog..
honestly..me too..

this morning, i opened my eyes at 8.30am
feeling weird to wake up so early
then covered up my face with a pillow
then fall sleep again..
the next time i opened my eyes
it was 9.30am
i got up from my bed with laziness

after finished my breakfast,
i sat in my living room comfortably, reading newspaper
all is about politics..
what a boring topic..
just criticising each other
what a childish group?!

then, i noted there are some news about scholarships n study fair..
these are what i am concerned about..
looking at all the news,
simply a thought appeared in my mind,
y my life now seems so meaningless?
because i am not studying?
or because everyone has started their school life
while i am still here wasting my time in other matters..

i really hard to live w/o studying?
i hate the feeling of letting the time past just like the water flows out of the tap..
non-stop, no returns, no backwards, no aims....
feeling down,
looking at all my buddies who now get nearer and nearer to their goals,
who are now enjoying their moments in colleges, searching for knowledge..
my life is dull..

by comforting myself, i can do something which i think is meaningful..
what can i do other than study now..
knowledge which i gained will follow me along my life journey
but meeting friends, blogging, surfing are only entertainments which give me short-term pleasure
i wonder i can learn new stuff to upgrade myself
yet is difficult to get it start

i really wanted to study badly..
may be is because my goal aren't easy to achieve..
it needs doubled hard work, doubled concentration
for me, it also need more time in order to achieve..

Time is gold
no more hanging here n there aimlessly,
is the time for me to restart my engine which had rest for 3 months

spm result will be revealed soon..
waited impatiently at the ache of my high-school-life