Single on Valentine's Day

This year, again i labelled myself as "single" but "not available"..
because at this moment...

i need freedom more than being controlled..
i need future more than today..
i need concentration in study more than relationship..
i need to enjoy life of single more than coupled..
i need to being loved more than to love..
i need friendship more than B&G relationship..
i need friends more than lover..
i need to wash off more than to restart..

Thus, do not blame me if i did not receive your love..
to be honest, i am selfish..
but still i am not ready..
or i should say i do not deserve it..

However, it was a beautiful night for me..
as it is simple but filled me with happiness n laughter..
nothing is better than the present..

Thanks for making me the star of yours..
i appreciate very much..

With lotz love..

I'm back!

too long never update my blog..ha ha..because i quite busy these day..where to start my story?

i think have to start from new year..i stopped blogging when is near the Chinese new year..

erm..this year considered a very special year for me because my dad is not celebrating the new year with us..he now still at overseas..honestly i miss him very much..think seriously, is important that there is a man in ur house..whatever happens will be solved very soon n things seem to be very easy when my dad was around in Malaysia..

did u all knows the feng shui stuff for 2009?the zodiac stuff? my zodiac is goat/sheep/lamb (not sure what they call in English but is 'yang' in Chinese)..so the zodiac of cow is against the goat..theoretically they said that the goat will very bad luck this year..the goat also got the last position in the lucky star list..so i actually believe the saying but i believe myself more..

but after the heavy rain at my housing area just now, i sit n think n flash back matters had happened since 1/1/2009..the saying is true..
on the first day of 2009, which is also the first day my dad left Malaysia, the mosaic on the wall of my house broken, it caused me n my mum to busy for 2 weeks just to renovate it..how sad..the first day of the year...

the thing is we will be so busy about the renovation because we seldom get involved in this matter when my dad still in Malaysia..that was the time i started to know how important is my daddy to my family..as time goes, my fridge also 'boycotted' my mum..it malfunctioned the week before new year..again we had to run around kl to survey the price n the model of the fridge we wanted.. the new fridge just officially used yesterday..

one more thing..it happened at the week after new year..it was a moonless night with a heavy rain outside, i went into my room.. suddenly i heard the sound of water dripping..at the end i found out that my ceiling have a small hole n is terrible where the rain water dripped from the roof top until my new ikea cupboard through that stupid hole.. until this moment we haven settle the problem as we do not know what to do..so now i have to put a pail in my room..pity rite?

back to today..that heavy rain i mentioned just now spoiled my TV due to the lightning..so scary..so now i have to survive without TV for few weeks..it might burn a hole in my pocket as the new plasma TV or LCD are not cheap..what else can i do now other than believing i am 'sui' this year..

for all the ppl who has the same zodiac with me, remember to wear more clothes in green colour n wear the jade jewelleries as the colour can improve our luck this year..told by a famous feng shui sifu from Hong Kong..

believe it or not? is up to u..

car driving lesson 1

SCARY..i have juz finish my first & second car driving lesson with Uncle Woo..
Phew!! It was like a nightmare..
4 in the evening, without telling me, uncle ask me to sit at the driver site and start my first car driving session..
At first, i was so scared and refused to drive..but still i made it..
honestly, i very proud of myself once i finish the lesson..ha ha..pai seh ar..
i drive from my house to kajang - laluan A - surfine institut - ampang - pandan indah - MRR2 - my house again..WOW!!
phew!!! It was crazy to drive on the highway..ha ha..
till now i still got no confidence in me..
WEAKNESS 1 - only know to 'touch' the brake pedal, don't know how to 'press' uncle said so =(
WEAKNESS 2 - don't know how to turn the steering wheel nicely when come to a turning my stupidest part
WEAKNESS 3 - don't know which gear for which kind of situations uncle said change gear only i change, i very cacat, always cant recall the gear before that, so most of the time also asking uncle " until which gear already ar?" =p
actually still got a lot but very malu to say all.. ha ha..
first time ma..ha ha..anyway it was fun and it gives me a new experience and don't know how..
i feel i have grow up..big girl loo..can drive dy..ha ha..=p sesat =)