worst after all

no more waiting..
no things will change..

too sad to say..
how's the feeling of dream shattering into pieces..
how frus will it be..
it will be the feeling of mine now..

unbelievably painful
unexpectedly disappointed
a sudden emptiness in the torso
a unmeasurable-deep hole in the future
a hazed-blur vision for tomorrow

sorry to my beloved ones,
for not giving u all the best mothers' n fathers' day present

sorry for the supportive ones,
for not fulfilling the hope of urs in me

sorry for wei gee,
for ur glass-like dream shattered into millions pieces..

silent, the best remedy,
be absolute quite to listen to the roar of the heart

cry, the best response,
to distract me a little while

tears, the best transport,
the transportation for frus n disappointment

Be tough_it's not the end of ur days

waiting for...

daily routine...
waiting for..

the sun to shine through my window
my phone alarm to ring
my heavy eyelids to open
a same call from the same person in the same time(mum)

my meals to cook(brunch time)
some freaky ideas to pop out(for today's activity)
my favourite songs to be chosen by the DJ
the new story book i read to be finished (eclipse)

the unexpected visit from whoever
the msgs from friends
the msgs from hotlink
the time to call some friends up

my favourite shows on tv
the postman to bell my bells
the package i should receive this month

the confirmation letter for Scholarship
the offer letter for form 6
the miracles to occur(study overseas)

the time to past quietly
the night to fall
the rain to drizzle
the tiredness to fill me

while
waiting for
the unconsciousness to hit me
i'm waiting eagerly for
the coming of tomorrow(hope it will b more interesting than today)
the coming of future
the coming of tomorrow's sun to break today's darkness

Life's mostly about waiting..
we are waiting for things to happen..
we are for the time to respond..

try to sit n think..how many things are u waiting for..
u will find out there is more than u think..

farewell

say goodbye to my kindergarten
bye to my colleagues
bye to jonathan too

today early in the morning, i went to my kindergarten to collect my salary..
n the chance to bid a farewell with those ppl
gloomy i could say..

bought him a doggy so that he can remember me well..
some accessories to all the teachers..
got a chance to meet the new teacher..
an Indian lady who looks very inactive..
pity my son who under her guidance

surprisingly, my son's mummy had prepared a present for me..
unexpected.. it is a black fur-ly sweater
(looks expensive)
i think she thought that i going overseas to pursue my study..
well i might need it some day
so touch when it is handed to me..
immediately, the song of ' hei sei mao yi' by Jay Chou played in my mind..
is so familiar with me cos the 1st farewell closely related to this song..
it attached with a picture where me n jonathan took during his bday

tears almost flow out my eyes when i walked out the kindergarten..
he is standing at the gate, watching me away with my car..
although he showed nonchalant when i came
his innocence made him couldn't understand my leaving..
i should say that he don't even know that i am leaving
he only thought that i m taking some kind of leave n will b back soon

i cant explain much
just hope that he will be fine in every matters
will miss him always..